Perception is not Reality

A Prescription wont change my mentality

A few people cant change a whole society

The words I chose to use will not always fit into their propriety

My past has me locked into sobriety, at times I live in the word fabulosity, and other times I feel like im suffering from anxiety. 

The quiet type, Is what label they always try to put me in, but I wont wont fit, I cant fit in, because someone sticks me there, It wouldn't be fair, to suit up in an armor that would make me square, to cause me to have a dim light, and lose the will to fight, for what i believe in and for what makes things right. 

Niggaz throw weights all night, to try to weigh me down, to hold me tight, but i cant stand still,  that'll take my smile,  I wear it out of spite, I cant wear a frown, Ive gotta rock all night.  And still,  I battle with my own fears, and my own skeletons, that i wrestle deep within. 

ohhh

I hate the fact that things get so complicated... But atleast time I am not so emotionally affected. but somethings gotta give at some point... there gotta be a common ground... because I dont see this as a privelage... Just as something that I want to work out.... Im the only one who looks out for me... I get no help... so ive gotta be stubborn when it comes to the things that want and decide that I need... Because no one know hows I feel except 4 me. I wish we could go back in the day...

Hot Cocoa

I wish today would have been a snow day for once rather than another 2 hour delay. I swear when i was in school Fairfax County Always Had Snow Dayy!! And now since that I work for the county all we ever have are 2 hour delays, no matter how dangerous the roads are. It kinda stinks and is making me mad. Last year on Valentines Day we had a Snow Day... That was sweet! But anyways I dont have much to blog about other than my baby... has been really sweet.. he kinda warmed me up like hot cocoa on a snowy wintery day... :) I feel all bubbly. But but anywho I hope everyone gets their dose of hot cocoa sometime this friggen cold week, so you can feel as toasty as I do inside! Love ya Lots

GOOOOO Giants! Im so excited they won last night!!! Amelia and i went to Fridays and watched the first part there, but when I got home my ass was knoooocked out!!! Which isnt like me because I love football.. but from time to time I would wake up.. and I saw the patriots dude block the ball from getting to the Giants guy in the end zone.. and screamed nooooooooo!!! and went to right back to sleep, and then I woke up and saw the Giants score and i was like yeeeaaaa!!! thats what Im talking about...we're gonna win this... we got this..in our pocket!! And then I fell asleep and didnt wake up again hehe!!! i was soo tired.. I had a busy weekend! And of course Saturday night at Fast Eddies was sooo fun.. all the girls came out: Amelia, Janelle, Tasha, and Brittany.. then we were partying with some guys back from our high school days Marcus (who is a trip) and Mr. Gilbert White was there... SO we he fun just kickin it with the crew! But anywho im gonna close this entry and began my work day.. that should have began 33 minutes ago.. but Ive got no kids!!

Friday--- Feb 1st!

Ooooh poooh... Only a 2 hour delay.. Can Fairfax County Public School please be closed!!! I swear when I used to live and go to school in Manassas, Fairfax County would close for the dumbest and mildest conditions.. and now since that I work for the County.. all we do is get delayed... and today its for rain.. HOW LAME... Anywho Me and my peeps have plans to go to Love, But if this rain continues I'll be Loving my dance floor and Pjs at home...

Random Thoughts

I wrote two songs today.. Im on a roll... I sent the one to my homegirl and she made it my ringtone on her cellie.. Shes so cute, and totally supports me and keeps me going.. and Believe me she wont indorse anything that sucks LMAO!!!  But anywho i was really missin my booobie boo today... So of course the Love Song is about him.. Its called "Bond". But I feel better now.. .And I am watching "dont forget the lyrics" at the moment and this lil kid is killin it, but Im mad he had to get a back up to BSB's "I want it that Way" I know hes young but BSB used to be the Shiznick Lmao!!!.. I was huge fan.. Anywho... Kisses to Jay for getting my spung on this site... And I dont care what you say... Your a Gig... LMAO.. Much love... 

Wrap Up

Today was a nice long day, but I always enjoy working with Brittany.. Anywho when I was supposed to be working I came across this beat on Imeem.Com and totally started writing to it.. Its  a tight song.. and the lyrics came from the heart and totally has an ol' skool.. RnB feel to it.. which I love.. I let my Bestie Amelia hear it, and she liked it... So I know its good, cause shes the type that'll let ya know!!! Anywho.. Other than that.. we baked another cake at work for the babes, and just chilled out and planted Dinosaur Plants and made Soap Scrubbies LOL.. But anywho... Im still feeling really motivated but My Bed is Calling.. My Body.. Lol.. But I really want to finish reading this book Im reading which is "Battlefield of the Mind", its teaching me to chill, let go, and let God handle it all... Thank You Lord!!! 

Motivated

Today I feel extremely motivated and wish i could spend allll day in the studio... I feel extremely vibrant even though in the mean time I am missing my heart... extremely... But for some reason even though i feel so vibrant and motivated... Ive been completely GRUMPTASTIC... and that make no sense at all... Lol it must be all the mixed emotions.. I want to feel as happy like bright yellow but im feeling more along the shades of dijon mustard.

When I write I like to pull from experience and create descriptive lines so that you can see and maybe even feel what I was feeling at the moment... I realize though that most of my songs, or poems are about Love songs that mainly are about pain, Sex, or looking fly.. so this year in 2008 i am going to try to just focus on happiness and really tap into the little joys of life and embark on the happiness they create. I want to become even more creative with my writing style, at the moment it is as if I am talking to you, but i want to deliver it in a story format... so maybe itll be more inviting, so that the listeners mind will wonder... 

wow Ive got alot to say today... I used to blog on myspace but not anymore... Lately thru the last month Ive been going thru the motions so to speak... Ive really gone on a soul searching quest, and realize that I am on the right path.  I thought maybe that I wanted or needed to change who i am personally. But I realize that wasn't the case. I was just looking for direction because over the past several months I forgot who i was and wanted to do because I always seem to do that when I fall in love. But now I remember who I am and the things I want to focus on, and that I need to continue to be who "Skye" is cause thats who her "love" fell inlove with. And its important that I dont lose me, or fashion my self to be someone else. 

Ambitions

So many things I wanna get my hands on and so many ponds i wanna dip my feet into.. so I can start to pursue my dreams.. and this year im going to start grabbing hold on to the things I want.. even if that means I get pulled into the pond.. and have to dry myself off a couple of times..